Take Away This Ball and Chain
12:10 and I’m tearing through the back roads singing my heart out when I get ambushed by Social Distortion:
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I start belting “Take away, take away, take away this ball and chain, well I’m sick and I’m lonely and I can’t take anymore *sob*” I lost it. Full on wailing, the thought of having this whole life and still dragging that weight around. I wept for this man because I have known those feelings. I wept for this man because I am ginormously pregnant- long distance, feminine hygiene, and Kodak commercials send me spiraling out of control and diving for the Kleenex box. I cry when someone drinks the last juice box or when the very polite timer on the dryer dings ever so softly and scares the crap out of me. The Hubster can’t help but laugh at me, heck I don’t blame him but it still makes me cry harder.
When I’m not busy spilling tears, I’m eating or yelling. Often I am doing both at the same time so food particles launch out of my mouth and then I weep for my lost food. The old joke about sending the husband out at 2 am for chop suey and watermelon, really isn’t a joke. Last night for dinner I ate an entire head of steamed broccoli and a bowl of Rocky Road ice cream… Then I cried because we were out of hot fudge sauce.
September 28th, 2006 at 4:42 pm
aahhhhhh yes. i remember it so well. knowing it’s symptoms doesn’t change the realism in the moment. And Social D can make a girl weep on a good day, anyways.
September 28th, 2006 at 5:32 pm
Pregnancy hormones are the best! They turn you into a weeping mess, but wait you know it get better. You have post-partum hormones to look forward to.
September 28th, 2006 at 5:47 pm
You poor thing! {BIG HUGS}. I can so remember what it was like to cry over literally anything and everything. Once I bawled like an idiot cause I dropped the gallon of milk and it spilt on the floor. And because I burnt the pizza. And the book “I’ll Love You Forever”…don’t even get me started. It STILL makes me cry.
Hang in there honey. It will be over before you know it.
September 28th, 2006 at 5:50 pm
I HAD gotten over that part for a whole minute and it is somehow coming back. And I thought pregnancy could somehow be pleasant…. silly silly girl.
September 28th, 2006 at 8:47 pm
Don’t feel bad. I act like that and I am not even pregnant. This too shall pass, honey…hang in there.
September 29th, 2006 at 1:44 am
Oh, I feel for ya! The roller coaster of emotion can be really difficult.