Calgon, Tylenol Pm, Someone! Take Me Away!!
Today I pulled into my driveway after dropping the girls at their respective schools and realized I had no idea HOW I got home. There are several routes I could have driven and I truly have no coherent memory of which I took home.. zero. I find this to be extremely unnerving.
Sure, when I was 19 and driving home from dancing all night long, I’d go on autopilot. It bothered me sometimes but on the whole I was able to ignore that hinky feeling associated with losing a good hour of your life. Now that I am responsible for the transporting, feeding, breathing, and general quality of life for my own children, my feelings on the matter have changed. I think it would be more reasonable of me to allow my children to exclusively drink Twinkie creme filling for nourishment then it is to drive them around in this drooling daze.
This haze is no ordinary new mommy crash; it is a full fledge result of infant on mommy torture. Just picture my 12 day old in a diaper with a bull whip and some devil horns. Levi has his days and nights confused. He is showing no signs of budging on the matter and I am starting to show signs of breakdown- if I was imprisoned and being tortured for information I would have cracked wide open days ago, spilling every sordid detail of my life like Chunk in The Goonies when the Fratelli’s shove his hand in the blender.
To my darling son, one of the lights of my life. Please stop killing mommy. When the curtains are open and it is sunny outside, you are welcome to nurse every hour- hell every 45 minutes if you so desire. However, when it is dark, for the love of god PLEASE go a 2 or 3 or even 4 hour stretch without waking mommy.
February 23rd, 2007 at 3:54 pm
LOL, I see his picture and something inside me snaps and says “YOU MUST HAVE ONE OF THOSE” then I read your post and the brain takes over and says “no, you like sleep too much”. He is so beautiful, I will live vicariously through you and maybe baby fever will pass. Did you get your gift yet?
February 23rd, 2007 at 9:13 pm
Ah, sleep deprivation, thy name is baby. Good thing babies are cute, or they might not live to see their first birthdays after shenanigans like this, eh?
February 23rd, 2007 at 9:37 pm
Phew I am so glad to hear that I’m not the only one who has ever done the auto pilot thing. I had dropped my DH off at work and was on my way home I suddenly realized I had missed my turn off and was like HUH? to boot we had only been here for like 6wks. It was scary! But babies do that dont they and it happened with my 3rd also. Things do settle down although it does take a bit.
February 24th, 2007 at 12:06 am
Just remember its going to get better. At least, it did with my kids. My parents, however, weren’t so lucky. I woke them up at least once a night every night until I was 9 years old. Yes, I said years. Nine of them. No sleep.
February 24th, 2007 at 10:41 am
Yeah…been awhile since you’ve been at this stage with a baby, huh? LOL
Meghan was the same way, though obviously I couldn’t breast feed her…she would sleep at all hours of the day, then was up and down all night long. Lucky for her Mommy is a night owl anyway and didn’t mind TOO much. (4:39am here as I type this…see what I mean?)
Hang in there hun! This, too shall pass!
Oh, and I LOVE seeing the pictures of Levi! He is just beautiful!
February 24th, 2007 at 1:37 pm
as a mother of three (teens)…. my advice for all it’s worth.
Do everything you can for a whole day to keep that boy awake. Then at night he will be too exhausted tp get up all night.
February 25th, 2007 at 6:02 am
I am so in love with your son, even if he is a little confused on when he is supposed to sleep.
February 26th, 2007 at 4:29 pm
He looks PISSED, like he’s saying “Ok, I’ll sleep, lady, but I’m not going to enjoy it.”
I’m in the same boat over here. My Bug won’t sleep at night. Sleeps like a freakin’ charm during the day, but nights? Not so much. I’m starting to hallucinate - I keep seeing mice out of the corner of my eye. Very annoying.